Renewed Interest

It's ridiculous how stupid a person, myself specifically, can be. Each and every day I think about practicing, and I know I should. Funny thing too because I love to practice. I finally figured out why though, or at least something close to a "why" I don't.

I am scared. I'm scared of succeeding, failing, and ultimately just trying to see if I can do either.

I have never once thought that I am any lesser than anyone else. Whenever I gain inspiration, (concert, listening to a song, thinking about parents, band director, etc..) I know that I can be one of the best. If not the best then at least something above average, because I know I possess the skill set and knowledge to succeed. But for some reason those same inspirations fail to break through my fear.

Before when I would lack inspiration I would just ignore the nagging part of my mind telling myself to practice, learn, and read what I absolutely enjoy. Although, Now I know I am improving each day because I finally know the "why", and I am trying to make that fear go away.

This blog is going to finally turn into what I wanted it to be in the first place. A place for my on going progress. (practicing, recordings, defeating the "why", and inspirations).